Why do kids stay in the internet for hours, do not get up and socialize outside the house? I am gonna answer that question from my p...

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Why do kids stay in the internet for hours, do not get up and socialize outside the house?

I am gonna answer that question from my perspective- from my own insights, experiences, and thoughts about the question.

Technically, kids do socialize in the internet. That is why they call Twitter, Facebook, Instagram and sites of the sort, "social medias". When you search the Merriam-Webster Dictionary for the word "socialize", it will give you the defition, " to talk to and do things with other people in a friendly way", so, yes, kids socialize - but on a different manner.

Life in the cyberworld is easier than the life in the real world. You can limitlessly shop without hurting your feet. You can play video games even if it is raining. You can learn how to play musical instruments, different languages, and read some books for free. These are things that you can do in the cyberspace which you are restrained to do in the real world.

I have been spending so much time in the internet. I often watch videos and spend my time viewing and posting on my social medias. I admit it. I am being so nosy, watching other people's  vlogs, wondering what others do everyday, while I am just staying inside the house. I check others' Instagram accounts, trying to learn what are the best angles and filters. I also keep on reading fanfictions about Harry Potter online.

I depend my life on the internet. I am free to move. It is a place wherein I can just feel like I am safe, protected, and like I am in a lateral universe, wherein at a click, I can socialize with my friends. At a click, I can shut the things all up and pretend like I am invisible.

Sometimes, I pretend like I am invisible. Sometimes, we all pretend like we are invisible. I know that there comes a time in your life wherein you have a very big problem and you just want to escape them all, but you can't. Well, in the cyberworld, you can simply click the X sign at the top of the page. While, on the real world, we don't have an X sign that we can click for there are no escapes. Once you are trapped, you are trapped. You have one choice: face the consequence. That is why if I can make contact with the cyberworld, I make contact. I try to be there as much as possible.

However, when the internet is as slow as a snail, I get to remember the reality of life because the X sign at the top of the page can sometimes not function well during a slow internet connection. It means that just like in the real world, I am now trapped in the cyberworld. The slow internet connection is like the primary reasons why I- and other children stay on the internet for hours. These are unwanted judgements, comments, stares, remarks, and all those stuffs that we receive in the real world.

I, like any other human being, am being judged. You may wonder why. It is all because of my personality.

Physically, I am really far from perfect. I am fat, chubby, and far from pretty. I can remember events wherein some people would stare at me from head to foot, as if judging me. Socially, I don't spend my weekends with friends in the mall because I am just not that type of girl. I am also not that good at talking to people one on one. Thus, I am so not good at sports. I stink at it.

I was not the type of kid who enjoyed playing with friends at the playground. I was not the type of kid who entertained guests when they visited at home. Oh, I remember recently, a visitor went to our house. I have a four-year-old cousin, Lia, who is a typical kid who is really noisy, loves to play around, and can deeply entertain guests. And then the visitor said, "Wow! Ganyan ba talaga si Lia? Dati, kapag bumibisita kami, parang walang bata kasi ang tahimik nito ni Anya."

To be honest, sometimes, those judgements afftected me. Even though I just smiled when somebody complimented my cousin but made a negative comment about me, I was sarting to burn deep inside. Even though I just laugh when somebody calls me "taba", "lechon", "baboy", "pig", and even make some jokes like "katayun na na siya" (cook me in short bc I'm a pig -_-), deep inside, I am contemplating. I am asking myself why I deserve all these embarrassments and criticisms.

But these unwanted opinions molded me into a better person. The criticisms inspired me to make them realize that even though I may be weak at some points, but I also have my own strengths. I convinced my self that I should be good at public speaking. Everytime I recite in class, I speak with confidence. I try to stand straight, keep my eye contact, and speak with hand gestures. In that way, I feel like I am superior to them. I feel like they can not bully me. I can make them somehow inferior. I prove to them that I am not a crybaby who constantly gets affected by their adverse reviews.

And now, my ability to speak in front of the crowd is being judged by the same people. They say that I am OA or over acting and such an exaggerator.

I do not let them come to my nerves anymore. I just shake them off. I just tell them that they should try speaking in front for long periods of time sometimes because they would really feel the need for emphasis and exaggeration. But secretly, I want to tell them that they should try it so that they would feel the need of my help and so that they could do something other than being judgemental.

Moreover, people seem to be impressed by my ability to speak in front. They do not underestimate me. They also highly respect my views and opinions nowadays.

I don't let bad vibes get to me because I would just satisfy them, make them happy, and ruin me. I don't want them to see my negative reactions, but my positive ones. I only want them to see how I am becoming a better person.
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Slow internet connection and problems with the computer have a strong relation to the criticisms we face everyday. They both make us mad. They both prove to us that you can not always hide in the computer and simply click the X sign on top of the page whenever you don't want to face judgements. You should really face them. You should prove to the judgemental people that they do not make you inferior. They are wrong for underestimating you. They made a terrible choice. Thus, at the end of the day, what matters is the fact whether you tried to face the judgements or not because if you didn't, you are a coward. You are a coward for trusting the X sign at the top of the page.







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