Music. It has been one of my favorite things. I would say that I really love listening and making music since it motivates me. I remember the time when I felt like I was impelled to do music. (And trust me, I have the ugliest voice ever.) Haha. How ironic is it that somebody like me who was not born with musical abilities felt like she should learn how to play a musical instrument? Pretty crazy, huh?

I have been playing musical instruments for 4 years now and I started when when I was in Grade 4. Why did I even want to make music? One word. Barbie. Back in 2008, I watched the Barbie and the Diamond Castle which made me feel jealous of Barbie and Teresa because they were able to play the guitar. Years later, my mom bought me a pink guitar like Barbie's. I was so happy that I decided to finally give music a try and enrolled to Yamaha School of Music.

 I took guitar and voice lessons, and later on, violin lessons. I had a really good experience, joined 3 grand recitals and 1 mall show, but last November, I decided to stop taking lessons because I was too focused with my studies. However, this summer, I decided to come back and take guitar lessons again.

So, last sunday, we had our Summer Tea Musicale, which is a small recital for the students who only enrolled for the summer. Even though I've joined grand recitals before, this one was still a big deal for me since it's my first Summer Tea Musicale! I had an amazing experience and I sure want to enroll again next year!

Here's a link to my performance of Torn by Natalie Imbruglia:
https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=1315250551822784&id=100000135565515

It has always been my dream to study abroad, specifically be a Bruin someday. I was quite obsessed with UCLA for awhile— I researched about the history of UCLA, the tuition fee, the scholarships, and how to get in. I watched UCLA move in day vlogs, until I saw myself looking at one youtuber that was really true to herself and showed great portrayal of an ideal college student.

Her name is Cindy Thai, a 21 year-old beauty guru and a daily vlogger, originally from Las Vegas. She vlogs her daily experiences at UCLA, like her Bruin Day, move in day, and of course, DINING HALL FOOD!!! (The dining hall food looks so good in the vlogs, I swear!)

How can I say that she portrays an ideal college student? For one, she also shows herself ranting about homework, midterm, and finals in the vlogs, just like when she stayed up for 2 days i think, studying for her international law class. She shows the reality of college—that there really are tough times like exams. Thus, she is really committed to daily vlogging. She tries her best to edit and upload the vlogs, which for me, is a really hard thing to do, most especially when you have to do schoolwork.

Another thing that I like about her is that she takes her vlog camera with her and captures as many moments as she can. She takes the infinities everywhere with her. It's like I am in the United States. It's like I am in LA. It's like I am in UCLA.

Practically speaking, I know that I have 0.1% chance of going to UCLA, but at least through her vlogs, I feel like I am at UCLA and living the dream!

P.S. I started listening to Yellow Claw because of Cindy! Hahaha

Lately, I have been complaining about how people treat me like a 5 year old kid. I hate how they want me to spend every single second with them, either hugging them or giving them compliments about themselves. Thus, as an older kid (Technically, I am still kid but I am an older one.), people also expect you to handle a lot of heavy things with a little bit of maturity.

Then, I walked past through the kids' playroom and remembered my 5 year old cousin, Lia. I wondered about her—I wonder about what she feels like these days. I wonder if she cries whenever she remembers her memories with the special people to who, she can no longer spend time with. I wonder if she complains when people treat her like a newborn baby.

Sometimes, I wonder about her. I wonder about what it's like to be a five year old kid.

I fell for him. He always appeared in my dreams. I always think about him. I always pray for him. I did that for months - years even. I kept quiet for several years and admired him on the side ways.

But, 2015 happened.

It was the year when I gave up. It was the year of realization. It was when realized that ours is an unrequited love- I'll only love him on the side ways for he'll never notice me. Our relationship is one of the so-called "One Sided Love".


Photo by my one of my fave artists, Amy Cimorelli.
P.S. This is just for literary purposes, and I made this post based on the heartbreaks that I have read on contemporary books.

As some of you know, I am not a big fan of photography or taking pictures at all. However, I have been really 'addicted' to Instagram and making my feed, at least neat. So, how do I do it?

I have been using VSCO and Afterlight (yes, I bought the app). So, here are my formulas (or technically, formulae).



Disclaimer: I know that I do not have the best Instagram feed out there but I kinda figured out that I should do blog about this because I have been working hard for my feed lately.

For the record: I still keep my old photos on Instagram like the ones that I took using Retrica. I know that it does not really look good, but hey, they are they are still memories. I am proud to say that I went through my "Alagang Retrica Days" because that molded me into becoming obsessed with Instagram, taking selfies, and with my phone in general.

XOXO,
Anya